“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”
- Winston S. Churchill
I'll admit it: I've never been a very brave individual. I can't even think of a time when I've risked complete failure. I like playing it safe, which means avoiding risk at all cost. In school and classes, in my faith, in relationships, in trying new things... The list goes on. With the start of a new year, I've done a lot of soul searching as far as how I want to grow and better myself goes. It's somewhat painful to look back on last year in hindsight and see how different things could have been had I simply been willing to risk more. Praise God that His grace is sufficient to cover all my shortcomings!
I won't discredit my hard work in high school and say I settled for easy classes (because let me tell you, I worked my tail off in some of those classes), but I think I shortchanged myself by not risking failure and taking classes that would have challenged me even more than the handful that did. I took a lot of classes with only the grade in mind, not the overall knowledge I would take away. So here I am, in college, finding out that some classes are going to stretch me until I just might break. My Spanish 321 class, in particular, which I only just started today. I took four years of Spanish in high school, and yet I doubt all of the knowledge I gleaned from those years. Last night as I was freaking out and contemplating dropping down to the next lowest course just so it would be less of a challenge, some friends counseled me that I wouldn't be the only one in that class that was unsure, and that God put me in that class for a reason, and that it would all turn out all right. And it was then that I realized my biggest fear in taking that class was risking failure. But I know that as long as I work hard, I will be okay. I'm sick of sitting on the sidelines, wishing that I could be like the other brave souls out there who don't care if they make a mistake and what others might think of them.
I love this quote from You've Got Mail: "Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around?" I want my life to be memorable and matter - I don't want to look back in 20 years and regret not trying my best and putting myself out there, even if it meant that I might fail. Which brings me to another quote I absolutely love from Batman Begins:
"And why do we fall, Bruce? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up."