Tuesday, April 1, 2014

The Little Things

They say a picture is worth a thousand words, and today, I'm going to let them do most of the talking.

Yesterday, after almost 17 years, we had to put our beloved dog Toby to sleep. I guess I always thought that he would somehow live forever - reality is a crushing thing.

This is when I first set eyes on Toby.

Together, we grew from this...

...to this.

Toby was the best dog our family could have asked for. 
He was a feisty rascal sometimes, to be sure. He was a professional escape artist, and enjoyed gallivanting through the streets of Burlington unattended. His bark could go on for hours without growing hoarse, and he turned into an acrobat that could perform amazing feats in order to reach food that seemed just out of reach.
But one look into his puppy-dog eyes, and he made your heart melt.

I don't remember what life was like without Toby. We grew up together, and he's seen me through so many major (and minor) life events and changes. He's been my main man, my partner in crime, my snuggle buddy, my greeting committee, and best friend.
And it hurts to finally have to say goodbye.

RIP, Toby. Thanks for the memories. Love you always.

"Sometimes," said Pooh, "the smallest things take up the most room in your heart."


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

My Year in Review


What an adventure 2013 was!
But since it kicked off at Urbana, I guess I shouldn't have expected any less.

This year has been full of joy, challenges, heartbreak, wonder, responsibility, and so much more. And though I very often fall short, I am striving to grow in my relationship with God and become the young woman He wants me to be.

So, in honor of New Year's, here's a look back on my adventures of 2013:
  • I went to Urbana
  • Two of my siblings got married
  • I declared my major (and minor!)
  • I got my wisdom teeth out
  • I traveled out of the country for the first time
  • I fell in love with Bolivia and the awesome family I have there (my brothers and sisters in Christ!)
  • I got to fulfill my dream of being a princess
  • I made my first 911 phone call
  • I learned what it feels like to burn out and how rest is necessary in order to be a world changer (#Radical...)
  • I turned 21
  • I found out I'm going to be an aunt!

A year ago today, I did not see any of this coming. And of course, this is only the tip of the iceberg - 2013 was filled with adventures and life lessons up the wazoo. I made so many wonderful new friendships, and strengthened old ones. I rejoiced in successes, and endured failures. I laughed. I cried.

This year flew by. I have no idea where the last four months went. But here I am, all the same. And though I have no idea what 2014 has in store, I'm excited to see what God is going to do in me, through me, and in the lives of those around me. I'm excited for the adventures I'm going to have and the opportunities that await.

New Year's Resolutions, you ask?
Well, I'd like to take more risks, I guess. I want to become better at failing, so I can learn from those experiences and not let them defeat me. 
I want to be intentional in my relationships.
And I guess one of the biggest things I want to commit to this year is resting in God. I want to change the world, but in order to do so, I have to be plugged into Him and allow Him to fill me with the strength I need.

So bring it, 2014. I may not be entirely ready for you, but I'm as ready as I'll ever be.

Go team.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Fragile


As class ended today, my professor paused.
"I wanted to wait until the end of class to tell you all this. 
One of your classmates died."

I wasn't planning on blogging about anything else before I was able to write a debrief on my experience in Bolivia. But I couldn't ignore the need to write about this.

I didn't really know the guy. The most interaction I had with him was probably last Thursday, when a couple of us were joking with each other in the back row. I only found out his name today.

But I know that he had friends and family outside of that classroom that did know him. Right now, they're experiencing the shock and grief of a young life ended too soon. And I'm reminded of when I was in 8th grade and I found out that two of my classmates died in a car accident.

Life is fragile. Time and chance happen to us all. But I know I'm guilty of believing that I'm invincible. It's times like this that remind me that I'm not - life is short.

I may not have known this student, but his presence will be missed in our class, because we're cursed with the knowledge that he will never have the opportunity to join us again. His empty seat will be our reminder.

And it makes me wonder: what's the point of it all? As students, we study hard so that when we graduate we can go off into the world and makes tons of money. We fight to fit in a social life and have a great time with friends, or devote time to our families. We work one or two jobs to pay for as much school as we can so we don't have as much debt to pay back. We manage to fit sleep in there somewhere.

And in there, quite often, we miss out on a lot of joy because we're so stressed out. What are we really living for? Ourselves?

I don't know if this guy knew Jesus. I don't know if there was anyone in his life to share the gospel with him. But it makes me wonder, is what I'm doing on this campus making a difference? When people see me, do they see Jesus? Am I sharing that hope with people? Because there are people who are lost and in need of a Savior. And death doesn't always wait for us to be ready.

I'm still processing the whole situation, so I apologize if this doesn't make sense. But here are a couple questions that I'm asking myself, and maybe you might want to ponder over them too.

What am I living for?
And is it worth dying for?

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Viviendo una Vida en Victoria con Dios


Hello again! I hope this finds you well. It's been a week since we've returned from the campamento with the Ayoré girls, and I wanted to make sure I blogged about it before leaving Bolivia. (I can't believe this trip is almost over!)

Last Sunday, the start of the camp, I wasn't able to go out with the other girls on our team because I came down with a fever and nausea. So myself and my teammate Katie stayed back because we were both sick, and went out the following day instead. Feeling sick is never fun, but I felt especially useless since I'm on a missions trip.

The week at the camp was full of ups and downs, trials and fun adventures. It was definitely one of the most challenging experiences of my entire life. I took turns teaching Bible stories in Spanish to my small group, which happened to be all of the new girls to the camp. I struggled to lead with my limited Spanish skills, and relied heavily on my coleader Tamara, one of my new Bolivian friends. She was an incredible blessing throughout the entire week. It was awesome to see the change in the girls as the week progressed. A few times during the small group sessions there were some girls who didn't seem to be paying attention at all. But then they'd surprise me by answering the questions at the end of the story.

My team also got to lead worship multiple times throughout the week, and though they were the same songs over and over, I absolutely loved worshiping in multiple languages with these girls. And seeing the girls get excited about the songs was really encouraging.

The week was filled with morning devotions, meal times, cleaning, playing on the playground and playing soccer and volleyball, crafts, Bible stories, worship, nightly reenactments of the Bible stories they were learning, and so much more. I was able to see firsthand why it can be difficult to work with the Ayoré, but I was also able to see how learning about God and His love was putting hope into their eyes. The theme for the camp was "Living a Life in Victory with God." And for this people group, who are considered the lowest of the low in Bolivia, and for these girls who are basically told that they're not worth anything, this theme spoke volumes. These girls are surrounded by pressure to become involved in prostitution and drugs, but we were able to share with them God's love and how He created them and they are valuable and precious to Him.

The last night, we had a dinner for the girls where instead of lining up to get food, we served them while they were seated. That morning Sandra, a doctor who has invested an incredible amount into the Ayoré girls, told the girls that they were daughters of the King, which made them princesses. So she told them to put on their nicest clothes they had brought and to come prepared to be served. And it was amazing to see the difference in the way the girls carried themselves at dinner. They took great care in properly using their forks and knives. They served each other soda. They had such a bright light in their eyes, it brought me to tears. For some of these girls, it was the first time they had been told and shown that they were valuable, beautiful, and loved. I also got to take part in a drama where a girl gets her heart broken by a series of guys (it gets torn into a bunch of pieces by the last guy), but at the end finds that Jesus loved her so much that He died for her, and He gives her a new heart. I hope it had a positive impact on the girls! That night, one of the young girls also accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior after an encounter with an evil spirit. I wish I could think of a better way to explain what happened, but the best I can do is to say that spirits are very real to the Ayoré. And after this girl experienced what she did, the leaders of the camp sat down with her, explained to her the plan of salvation, and she accepted Jesus. It's an awesome story, so if you'd like to hear it, please ask me about it when I return!

It was hard to say goodbye. As challenging as the week was, it was so fun being surrounded by the girls, loving on them and teaching them about Jesus. It was an incredibly humbling week. Many times, I felt completely useless with my broken Spanish. Spanish isn't the girls' first language either, so communicating was difficult for me sometimes. And other times I wondered if the little bit I was doing really made much of a difference. But looking back on the week, and from encouragement from others on the team who have been here before, what we did was significant, whether I thought so at the time or not. The fact that we came and spent a week with the girls, playing games, singing songs, and teaching Bible stories, shows the girls that they are special, that they are important enough for a team of Americans to come and invest time and money into. Thank you so much to everyone who made this trip possible, through all of your prayer and financial support. By extension, you're extending your love towards these girls too!

We went out and visited another community yesterday, and it was hard to witness their living conditions once again. Close quarters, trash littered all over the ground, stagnant water. And afterwards we saw two girls on the corner who were prostituting themselves, one of them sniffing glue to get high. Absolutely heartbreaking. I found myself asking, why was I born into privilege, and these girls born into this? Our situations in life could have been so easily reversed. Still trying to make sense of it all, and I don't know that I ever will. But I do know that I have a responsibility to the Ayoré now. To pray for them, to tell their story, and hopefully return to work with them again.

I'm so thankful for the opportunity that I had to come to Bolivia. I've fallen in love with this country, with the people here, and the work that God is doing. I am blessed beyond belief. I'm sad that the trip is coming to an end, but I know this isn't the end. It's the beginning of another adventure, for the chance to use what I've learned so far, and to continue to grow in my faith as I encourage others to do the same. Though the direct impact I may have had in Bolivia during my three weeks here may have been small, the impact it had on me is huge. When I get home and am able to process about my experience in Bolivia, I'll be sure to keep you informed with another update. Until then, Dios te bendiga! Ciao!

Saturday, June 29, 2013

Experience of a Lifetime

Here I am in Santa Cruz, Bolivia, checking in!
"It's in South America. It's like America....but south!" (Thanks to Up for that quote.)

I am so blessed to have made it here. I've had a week full of adventures, from struggling to communicate in Spanish everyday, to visiting the impoverished Ayoré communities, to trekking around the city on a scavenger hunt, to walking around the university campus with CCU students collecting prayer requests and inviting students to their weekly meetings, and so much more. I wish I had time to get into more details, but hopefully I'll give a fuller debrief after I return to the US.

Now we're prepping for the Ayoré camp that's going to run from tomorrow, Sunday, to next Saturday. The purpose of this camp is to share with the girls about God's love, and to let them know they are valued by Him. These girls are trapped in a cycle of injustice, where prostitution can become a lifestyle they get sucked into in order to make money. This coming week we'll be telling the girls Bible stories in Spanish, worshiping in multiple languages, taking part in dramas, and I'm sure so much more that I don't even know about yet. Please be praying for myself and my team, that we will stay healthy (already a few members of the team have gotten sick), that we will be able to communicate effectively with the girls, that we'll have joy and energy, and for the Lord's protection against spiritual attacks.

The GATHER ministry is taking great care of us so far, and I've made some amazing friends. My team has had some great bonding experiences as well. God is doing a great work here, and I'm excited to be able to take part in it. God is also teaching me a lot about myself, and every day I am challenged with something new. Thank you all so much for your support. I can't say thank you enough! Please continue to keep myself and my team in your prayers! Hopefully I'll be able to post a picture after the camp. Stay tuned!

Dios te bendiga!

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Oh, The Places I'll Go!


Oh my goodness, the day has finally arrived!
After six months of preparation and anticipation, today I leave for my Global Project in Bolivia! I cannot even begin to describe the emotion I'm feeling right now. Try mixing together excitement, nervousness, joy, and panic all into one. It's quite a complicated emotion.

So far, I've already had quite the experience in preparation for this trip: fundraising, trying to learn Bible stories in Spanish, cross-cultural ministry overview, and packing by candlelight when the power went out the other night. It's like the pre-adventure warm-up. And now, here I am, about to board my plane in a couple hours and say 'adios!' to the US for three weeks.

Thank you, everyone, for all of your amazing support through my entire journey. All of your love, prayers, encouraging words, financial support, gifts, and everything else in between - it honestly means the world to me, and has brought me to tears on more than one occasion. I couldn't do this without you. I am so incredibly blessed. I feel as if I don't deserve it. I am so excited to be able to share in this awesome mission experience with you!

I ask that you continue to pray for myself and my team, that God would ready our hearts and minds to engage the culture of Bolivia with Christ's love, and that we truly would have servant hearts. Some other prayer requests include:
  • Health for the team
  • Peace for my family (and friends) as I travel miles away from home
  • My eyes became incredibly irritated this last week, possibly due to the overwearing of my contacts, so please pray for healing on that!
  • For the hearts of the people we will be ministering to
  • For safe travels and favor going through customs
I can't wait for what's in store in Bolivia. I know I'm going to return from this trip changed, with a new perspective on the world. I know God is going to use this time to draw me closer to Him and teach me how to rely on Him even more. I will try to blog at least once or twice while I'm down there (June 24th-July 15th), but other than that I will not be checking my email or able to use my phone. So, if something extraordinary happens in your life and you need to tell me right away...well, it's going to have to wait. My apologies. Send me an email, write me a letter, and I promise I'll read it when I return! But keep an eye peeled for more blog posts!

Muchas gracias! Dios te bendiga!

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Bolivia or Bust!


Phew! What a week!
This week has been very good practice if I end up going on staff with InterVarsity. Each morning I woke up, worked on e-mails and various things for Large Group planning for the UWW IV chapter this next year, and then worked on prep and fundraising for Bolivia, and also tried to catch up with friends. Cleaning the house fits in there somewhere as well. Oh, and babysitting.
Along with that, my sister got married last Saturday! So congratulations to Carolyn and Chris! It was a beautiful ceremony with perfect weather at 7:30am on the beach in Fontana. It was great to have the family all together! Prepping for that kept me busy last week - totally worth it!

But I digress. Thank you all so much to those of you who have donated to my Global Project! I would not be able to do this without your support - it means so much to me! So far, I've raised $1655. This is a huge jump from where I was last Sunday. Praise God! That puts me at a little over halfway to my goal of $3000. If you haven't donated but would like to, check out my previous blog post! Or if you want to talk with me more about my trip, I'd love to chat! It's been about the only thing I've been able to talk about for the past couple weeks. And be prepared - I'm sure I'm going to have a TON of stories to share when I get back!

All right. So, for my supporters in prayer out there, I do have some prayer requests! I leave next Sunday, which is coming up fast, and I still have a good amount to do. So, prayer requests are as follows:
  • That my heart would be in the right place and I would have the right mindset leading up to and throughout my time in Bolivia
  • For my Spanish skills to develop as I prepare to leave and while I'm in Bolivia
  • For health and strength going into the trip, and for good health for myself and all of my team during our entire time in Bolivia
  • For all of my financial support to come in before I leave
  • That I would have motivation to get everything done at home that needs to get done before I leave
  • That all the nitpicky (yet important) stuff that I ordered for the trip would come in time
  • That God would calm my nerves (I've been told it's natural to feel nervous before a big trip like this...) and give me peace
  • For peace for my family as I'm gone for 3 weeks with minimal contact
I'll be posting more prayer requests some time next week, so you can be praying over specifics while I'm out of the country! Thank you again - it really does mean a lot to me! I am so incredibly blessed by all of you who are supporting me.

I will get to blog at least once or twice while I'm in Bolivia, so keep your eyes peeled!
Until next time...
Dios te bendiga!
(God bless you!)